Of course it cannot be seen, but we can measure and quantify its effects on the environment around us. You cannot see gravity either, but we understand the concept of how massive objects such as our Earth hold less massive objects (such as us) in their grip. What are you talking about with the "ifs" anyway? You mean like...if you were born in Iran you would be a Muslim...or if you were Tom Cruise's child you would be a Scientologist? I have already told you what pushed me away - it was my knowledge of the Bible and how the nonsense contained in it's pages contradicted what I could see in front of my very eyes - people like yourself who are so self-righteously ignorant only helped me along. One thing you are right on, however, is that spirituality has nothing to do with religion - or at least in my mind it shouldn't. There are tons of people who have one or the other, but rarely merge the two. In my opinion, a church-goer should strive to have a spiritual relationship with god while using their religion to govern their lives in accordance with their good book. I get the strange feeling that you have never tested your faith and rely on your own blind indifference to guide you through life without asking yourself the big questions.