I feel you sir, thanks man. I very much enjoy my interactions with you and your posts in general... I reckon breaking it off with Marianne fucked me up, the 1st 2 months were especially crushing. It doesnt affect me the same way
In This Moment
yeah it "doesn't affect you that way" or at least you believe that. You have fooled yourself into thinking that.
main point of this thread, where its gone, is that you are strong enough intelligent enough talented and "special" enough to live the life you want without the drugs being as big a part of it as you may believe necessary.
There are hundreds of examples of successful producers, agents etc who run with the wolves without overly indulging in drugs and dying as result.
I believe that you can be one of those guys.
I may be wrong and you may die.
I doubt you'd have been happy living anyways denying yourself of being in the Lane that you most desired to be in.
Amongst "Your People."
Deprivation Sucks.
I just hope you don't die.
Cuz then I am gonna feel like shit.
For w long long time.
Bcuz I know my posts have the Exterior Shell like an M&M of Space Aged Mystical BullShyt but there is, sincerely, a chance you could do some great stuff in this life bcuz you're very unique + the path you have walked. What you have seen, felt, what you have journeyed thru.