i need to grow some fucking balls man!!!! seriously.....mid point of the tourney, down to about 800 players (field of 9,000), i pick up A/J in middle position and raise 3x. at this point i have around 26k in chips, which is average. SB pushes all in, making it only about 3k more to go. early limper calls, he has about 9k in chips left. as soon as he called the SB's all in, i thought "i need to go ahead and put this motherfucker all in", as he had been playing just about every hand. instead, i just called, and when the flop came rags he shoved. i folded. and saw this guy turn up A/5.
fuck it. i'm playing well in the early stages, am consistently racking up chips, but i need some serious improvement in the middle to late stages. i know i keep whining about it, but goddamn. i'm playing like a scared bitch. in the early stages i'm in there making moves, doing a pretty decent job of knowing when to stay away and when to steal. i think a large part is, in the early stages, if i bust out, fuck it, it's just a couple bucks, but after a couple hours it's like, "i'll be damned if i wasted all this time to bust out now".....
may God have mercy on my soul