Some very good posts here, I enjoyed reading what folks have said, thank you. For you Dogs I don't agree with the post but I do respect you for being honest on something that you know most people wouldn't agree with you about. There's too many sheep in the world already, I respect anyone who doesn't swallow his voice when he knows something is wrong but afraid to say anything. For that I give you props.
Not sure I can say anything new but let me address this part of you being adamant that you are well aware you have a problem and take full responsibility for it. You keep bringing up chocolate as something everyone enjoys and is only a problem "for a few". Chocolate like guns, eating, smoking, booze, sex and a million other things do not pose significant problems for the vast majority of people. INCLUDING GAMBLING. Obesity is one of the biggest problems around right now. However if you heard a 450lb woman in here saying she knew she had an eating problem but still loved to see a McDonalds geting bombed because those bastards were "enabling" people to get fat what would you think? One of the problems with society these days is we have a big problem admitting we are at fault. We're fat but those damn fast food restaurants aren't helping. Yeah I shot the guy horseplaying but if we didn't make guns it would not have happened. I got snockered and chose to drive but if they didn't make booze I wouldn't have killed anyone. I've lost every quarter I have by gambling (and then some) but if there was no where to do it I would still have my money. And on it goes. If there is no excuse or outside influence for why we screw up then it would be down to only being our fault, and that my friend is not acceptable for most. "I'd be winning at gambling but there is a fix in on most NBA games"....
All you are doing by saying you are "owning up to the problem" is actually trying to minimize your role in all this. "I know I am involved but I am not the root of all this, there is a much bigger role than mine". There is no role in this at all my friend, it is entirely YOUR problem, 100% yours. Whether consciously or not you are bitter as hell right now at everyone connected to gambling because that is the root of a lot of bad things going on in your life. You are a walking billboard for a gambling addiction. You use means to justify the problems you are having. Whether you realize it or not you enjoy the books enduring this because you are suffering. A week or so ago you complained about an on-line casino that was "rigged". You won 20k or so but lost back 15k. The casino was fine when you won the 20k but when the 15k was lost is when the "problem" surfaced. More of the self-justification that your actions may be involved but weren't the main issue. Had you quit you could have won 20k but you continued on losing until you gave them 15k back and then reasoned out why your role was not the real reason, it was a crooked casino at fault. Shrink is right the defense mechanisms are deeply entrenched and no one posting here is going to show you the way. Bottom line though underneath all the tough talk of owning up to the problem is a bigtime 100% gambling addiction. That's why you are angered when people can't see that the enablers "deserve" this for what they are doing to you and others like you.
Anyway we only said this to help you man, not get on your ass. I enjoy you posts and it takes a man to post what you did. I knew the responses wouldn't sit well with you but people are only posting what they see. You can call a person on the street a drunk and it won't even bother him. Call a real alcoholic a drunk and you have touched a raw nerve. They get very defensive about it because they do not want to deal with the real issue - the disease. Good luck my man. If we can do anything let us know.