Thanks for your answer, my sticking point is if we didn't just stumble into this then who created God? I value a good friend's opinion and he says, "Can't God just exist, can't he of just always been there?" My answer is "No." I can't fathom that a God if there is one wasn't created which then begs me to question who was the first creator and how was he/it formed? At some point doesn't something get created out of nowhere. The fact that we are is a Miracle beyond belief no matter how it happened.
Welcome to the "beyond human comprehension" zone that I referenced.
No one can say for sure how God exists or how he/it operates. I kind of harbor a belief that when people pass on and go to an afterlife, they are then granted access to a giant book that reveals all the mysteries of the universe and the purpose of our existence.
You're on the same train of thought I am, though. Ultimately, our universe had to be created by something or some higher power. Matter doesn't just suddenly pop up one day and exist on its own. So who or what created it? And why? No one can slam a fist on the table and say "Yep, this is exactly how it happened!" with any certainty. Some higher being had to kick-start the whole thing. That's the only logical explanation I can come up with.
Those who mock people for believing in creation always amuse me. Believing all life forms came to be from random explosions, random gatherings of cells and random formation of life and colonies? If I used this same font size, the odds of that happening are probably 1 with enough zeroes behind it to stretch around the planet...to one. I think a lot of atheists are afraid to take any leap of faith because they just don't want to comprehend what might be on the other side, so they effectively choose to simply ignore it. Humans aren't the highest form of intelligence out there IMO...at least I certainly hope not.
What irks me is when either a fundamentalist or a hard-core scientist claims to have everything figured out and then pretends that invalidates any counter arguments. Simple science such as carbon dating can prove that the earth has been around for much, much longer than the 4,000 years or so which the church claims. Also, some things which science/biology has proven to be healthy for the human body are in contrast with the teachings of the church.
On the other hand, believing purely in evolution also requires its own level of faith. There is no evidence that a great matter of mass exploded and formed the earth, on which one day human beings just started walking out of the sea after being created from a random mass of living matter. Plus, we've all read stories about true miracles on earth...terminal cancer patients experiencing miraculous unexpected healing, people inexplicably coming back to life after being declared dead, etc. There is just no rational or logical scientific explanation for many events like that.
When I was around 10, a second cousin of mine had a grandma who was about to check out. She was in the hospital with some kind of illness...she fell asleep one day, the heart monitors went flat...and the nurses/docs started to fear she was dead. A few minutes later, the heartbeats returned. She opened her eyes and talked in great detail about seeing heaven...it was beautiful beyond comprehension, etc. She claimed the very last thing she saw was her husband emerging from the heaven (he had died a few years earlier). He smiled and told her "it isn't your time yet" before she came back to consciousness. From what I know, she never really talked much about her husband before that. It just seems too unlikely that the whole thing could have been dismissed as either a fabrication or just some vivid dream...