I'm taking the balanced path now... I will not make partying or drugs a priority in life, but will enjoy some hedonism from time to time. I was doing pretty fine clean and sober until I came back with my ex 3 months ago... the bitch is the craziest bitch in the planet (ive dated several of those but these one takes the cake)... so she loved MDMA (pure ecstasy), so I started partying again with her (not a big deal, MDMA is not addictive for me and hangover is really nonexistant)... so she started fuckin me up again, I was a king one day and the next I was a piece of shit (the only reason I took her back is cause her mom died 4 months ago and she looked for me for comfort, plus she is smokin).
3 weeks ago there we go to the beach, I gave her some acid and mdma the 1st night and we are in the middle of fuckin and a song plays on the stereo, a song that I posted on FB once and she felt the lyrics were directed to her (they were, but I will not admit it, cause its a fuckin useless drama)... SHE GOES BATSHIT CRAZY, SAYS IM AN ATTENTION WHORE, THROWS AN APPLE AT ME, AND PROCEEDS TO GO OUTSIDE BUTT NAKED. 3 days stranded there, after that it wasnt amusing.
1 week ago we make ammends on xmas... slept together it was great... Friday I caught her with another dude at a club where she and I were supposed to meet, she basically set me up on purpose... well she got to spend her night at the ER as I blasted my beer bottle on the fuckers forehead and I got to spend a night in jail. First thing I did when my friend got me out the next day, get an 8ball, down lots of whiskey and fuck a whore. Life goes on. Love is BS.