too not have become an alcoholic and ruin not only my life but ruin others so very close to me.as far as my own life,the way i was has caused me my very serious health problems and as a result paying for it everyday now.so for those that think its all over after you caused the damage to others and yourself,think again cause it continues to hang with you the rest of your life,weather it be your constant health issues like me,or if you hurt someone else and they are no longer around for you to say your sorry