i suffered from chest pains for years, all to different varying degrees, the thing is when ever i get the slightest pain my mind goes into overdrive and my mind starts racing and my brain is telling me i'm dying. i get this flee or flight feeling, basically i just have to get out of where i'm at. they finally diagnosed me as having massive anxiety and panic attacks years ago, after going to ER's many times in my early to mid 20's. And i've had ever test under the sun done and they are always negative. I remember having a stress test done in my mid 20's, i went after work and had on heavy soiled blue jeans and work boots and they hooked me up to all these wires and had me walking on a treadmill and it got faster and faster to a almost light run and steeper incline and steeper, by the time the test was over i felt my pulse pounding through me and they checked me all out and said i was fine and that only a people had went as far as i had on it without collapsing or complaining, i think they were full of it on that part, just trying to make me feel good.
Anyway, i've been sent to shirks and all they do is want to throw the newest anti-depressant on the market at you. i've been on so many i don't know whether i'm coming or going it seems. i've had shrinks tell me it could be because i'm a creative person and have an overactive imagination. All i do know is that when a full blown panic hits me and i can't talk my mind out of it that they suck. It's like the beginning of an acid trip when the back of your neck and head start getting all tingly and you get this butterfly feeling all through you , it just sucks. I've basically medicated myself for years just by drinking really heavy, you drink enough you just nub yourself and your mind says fuck it.
But now i've quit drinking and smoking and i still get them, basically it's just something that i live with and one day i guess after all the anxiety and stress of worrying when the next one will come, i will have a real heart attack or stroke, then if i live through it and can finally say " see i'm not to young to have one" and prove all those doctors wrong. All i've ever got is "your to young to have one, your not over 40-45". yet you can read in the paper all the time about young people dying from heart attacks.