Not only did I lose the games, but I am soon to lose the two most precious and dearest gifts ever bestowed upon me - my wife and daughter.
This is truly pathetic. You knew upfront, if you lost the games, the consequences which would result. Your wife and daughter are obviously not the two most precious gifts bestowed upon you. Your gambling is. It takes precedence over everything. Your family's future, your self respect, all of your material possessions. Not are you gambling away everything you have, that is your choice, you are gambling away everything your wife and daughter have. If they are so precious, you should have considered that. You are an addict. I feel no sympathy for you whatsoever. I mainly feel comtempt for letting your family down. Maybe you are in the self pity stage, or you are looking for pity. The only pity I have is for your innocent wife and daughter. Stuck with a loser, at everything. And to bring God into it. God was not willing, you were. Somebody should stand you up and kick your ass. I wish your beloved wife and daughter would. Your behavior is not self destructive, it is/has destroyed your family. I have a large family, six kids. My wife and kids mean everything to me. Not my gambling. If someone said to me, with a machine gun to my head, gambling or family, I would choose family. Every single time. You did not. You probably never will. Unfortunately, your family trusted you. As mine does me. And Chief, do not blame the gambling, blame yourself. Seek help immediately. Write a contract with both you and your wife/daughter signing, on paper, the end of your gambling career. In it, include, this is your last chance to choose between the two. Put it in writing, not some lame promise you never intend to keep. Look at this contract everytime you wake up, every time you go to bed. You may really dislike what I have to say, but you should have been stood up and been made accountable many moons ago. Be a man, a husband and a father. Gambler is a title you should drop forever. Best Wishes in getting straight...OF